I have always been quite a perfectionist, what comes to doing anything. I can easily keep editing a blog post for days, if I just have the time for that. Today I’m writing my heart straight out, because I have been reminded enough many times, that in the end, perfection does not exist.
DONE the best that I can at the very moment, is better than UNDONE fearing imperfection.
I made an experimental collaboration film ‘Hermannplatz’ a while back with a young poet Catri (Curiosity Killed The Catri) and my multi-talented composer friend Kwame Bruce Busia. It was more of an experiment in the beginning, but as it became a very short film in the end, I tested with it how submitting a film to film festivals work.
Any project takes time, effort and strength of mind. There are times you might struggle to find the answers, but a reminder of WHY will always drive your motivation back on track.
The film project POLYMER that I have been involved in for more than a year now, has had different stages throughout the process, as any project, but the reason WHY has always been strong in mind.
My co-producer and the writer/director of the film Matthew crystallizes our WHY well:
‘Our film is a response to the many corporate scandals in recent years, such as the Volkswagen diesel scandal, the Theranos fraud, and others. As filmmakers, we attempt to go behind the scenes and empathize with these characters, and try to understand what can cause ordinary, well-meaning people to participate in actions that lead to destroyed reputations and serious crimes.’
Matthew directing the actors in one of our rehearsals in Berlin, Germany
My personal WHY comes from witnessing the unfairness, greed and lying that goes behind the curtains, especially in corporate world. With this film, I want to raise awareness and keep the conversation going. We all have the option to be fair and kind to one another!
From the following link, you can watch our ‘Making Of’ -video and support us the way you can:
You need to step
out of your comfort zone
and to progress
Comfort zone news from my side:
I am freshly involved in an independent German feature film – Die Kämpfer (Fighters). I was originally asked to be the cinematographer in it, and I was thrilled to get the chance to learn more about professional equipment in such a long-term setting. As it turned out though, what the writer/ director/ producer Heiner Hänsel had also in mind, was to suggest me to act the supporting role in the film.
I am used to be on stage, as I was an active dancer throughout my youth. But talking and acting in front of people, and more intimately so of a camera, is something I have never done and was somewhat afraid of. And as if acting itself wouldn’t be challenging enough for me, it was all to be done in German, a language that I am not so fluent in.
Well, I read the script and decided to take the leap. I knew that I will have an amazing crew by my side to help and support me along the way, so I thought there is not a better time to try this out.
We have now shot the first few scenes, and let me tell you, I’ve learned so much being on the other side of the camera. I know more about what actors go through during the whole process, from learning the lines and finding the character to focusing on set and delivering the best they can. I know now what is needed on the other side. What I can also say – acting is an extremely complex art, so shout out to all you professionals – you are doing an incredible job!
What this experience has also given me, is the realization how many prejudices I have had for myself. Acting was always like a taboo for me, I thought it was not my thing. So I never tried. I was mostly sure that I could not memorize any lines, but turns out, I am actually pretty good at it.
My personal interest lies more on the other side of the lens, but as I jumped in front of the camera, that zone is not so uncomfortable either.
Moments of self doubt and periods of feeling unsure of your decisions. Life is full of ups and downs, also those days when you feel lost one way or another.
It has been such an adventure to live in Berlin so far, to attend incredibly exciting events and meet all the lovely new friends, but the city gives also a great deal of anxiety of various things, such as finding a permanent place to live and the hecticness of life.
The overwhelming amount of possibilities throw you easily off track. I have come now to the same realization that many warned me when I moved here. It is really hard to focus and be strong enough to remind yourself constantly of the reasons why you made the move in the first place.
THIS POST by Lindsay Lohan that I saw the other day gave me goosebumps for my current moment, mainly because as a young girl, I used to love her presence on screen. It stated:
“When life stops you from going ahead, Only in the eyes of the little girl you once were Will you find the strength to start over.”
This sums up my thoughts in the past few weeks. I visited my home Finland over the midsummer, and got a good reminder of my roots again, the roots of that young little girl that once dreamed to be where I am heading at the moment in Berlin and elsewhere. This gave me the needed little push to keep on working towards my dreams and feeling good about the present moment. The way to the destination IS the life.
I am working on few of my own projects at the moment, which I will tell you more about in a later stage, but to start with, let me introduce POLYMER MOVIE – an interesting short film I’m privileged to be involved as a producer. Please click THIS LINK to start following our making-of and behind the scenes on Instagram as we work towards the final product.
Berlin’s vibrant film network, especially the one of women, has really helped me to get into making, also into this previously mentioned project. The biggest shout-out goes to Women’s Film Network Berlin, which I’m proud to be part of. If you are interested to join and in the city later this month, please come and share the vibe in Volksbar the 25th of July! To check the event on Facebook, CLICK HERE!
REALIZE THE MOMENT YOU ARE IN.
Remember where you started at and came from. Appreciate all your hard work along the pathway that made it possible for you to be here. Here is now. And your strength of knowing it all will bring you to where you want to go next!
The award season has been flourishing these past few weeks around the world. In Berlin, for almost two weeks, it was all about Berlinale. As I am new to the film industry, it was quite overwhelming, but wow so enriching. I never knew how much was going on, until I experienced it myself. Here are some of the main moments of my festival time and few TIPS what to consider when taking part in one. PS. I apologize already beforehand the quality of some photos as they were taken quite on the run.
I started the festival experience with strolling around the locations with unexpected sunshine after months of rain. Lucky enough, I got to have few words with the festival director Dieter Kosslick himself, as he was on his way to one the first premieres.
The biggest part of film festivals is of course the screenings. I targeted mainly the premieres, as it is interesting to see and possibly meet the crew and cast and take part in the open Q&As if organized.
Many panel discussions, workshops and events are organized throughout the city during the festival, and I took part as many as I could and reasonably fit my calendar. The most eye opening event was ‘Closing The Gap – Creatives and Financiers on how to take action towards 50/50 by 2020’ -event organized by WIFT Germany, WIFT Nordic and Swedish Film Institute about the gender gap within the film industry. The conversation has been tough around the world thanks to the movements such as #metoo and #timesup, and it got heated here as well – in a good way to push us to work on towards the new goals.
Not to forget the fun and craziness of Berlin, I attended few nights out as well. Mainly they came out of the blue without organizing, so this is good to keep in mind when planning on morning events… When you meet interesting new people during the day, it is not a bad idea to ask where they are heading in the evening.
So planning to visit a film festival?
If anyone out there is planning to visit a film festival, one big thing I can say – the planning is the key! Obviously, different festivals work in different ways, but to plan the screenings and possible workshops, talks and parties is still important, so you don’t miss something that you are interested in.
In Berlinale, it is crucial to know when the tickets go on sale – some screenings sell out within seconds (online). For me, one film screening per day worked really well, on top of workshops, talks and parties – more would have probably been too much to focus.
In Berlinale’s case, a very warm winter wear is important as it can be freezing in February. Some true fans stay outside all night to wait the tickets to go on sale, but even though I am from Finland, I am not much of a winter person, so I preferred to refresh the event page in the coziness of my home every morning just before 10am.
Remember to get a good night sleep to have the energy also daytime, even though the parties can be tempting to stay til the next day. Good amount of parties can be amazing though, especially if you are looking for getting new contacts.
Which brings me to this: Be open to new contacts and surprising moments and occasions. You never know who you could meet and where. I met some key persons to my fun times at the festival in a metro – call it a luck or destiny.
Well lucky enough, I get to focus on my own film making now.
The world is full of stories – find your way to tell yours!